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11:47 Jun 30 2023
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Ugh. I have to go to the oral surgeon next week. My trip to the dentist revealed that the small lump/bump on the side of my tongue might indeed be a mouth cancer of some type so I have to have it removed and biopsied with haste. Lord help me. If it is not one thing it is another.
11:10 Jun 26 2023
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Yes, I took 10 whole days off from the computer. I did not even plug the thing in. In fact, I turned my phone off for a few days too; I seriously needed to unplug. I do feel better, but think I need another week. Oh well, work would not be having that! I am sure that you all missed me terribly. *Smiles*
10:05 Jun 14 2023
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I think my manager at work is going to have a serious anxiety attack because I am going to be off next week. Yes, I have trained someone to take over while I am gone, but he is like "she's fine; she's just not you." LOL. Well, no. It is good to be appreciated, but doing something that no one else in the firm does makes me somewhat indispensable which is great for job security, but not great when you need a break. I think his anxiety is compounded by the fact that since we are going to the mountains, I don't know what our cell reception and internet are going to be like.
At least today is my last day of commuting into town. I cannot get the right mix of days at home and days in the office. I signed up to be in the office three days in a row, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. Originally, I was scheduled to be in the office Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday which I hated because after I was home Wednesday, I did not want to go to the office Thursday. I thought that three days in a row would be better, but it still sucks because I am tired by Wednesday. See, when I am home, I usually end up spending the 2 hours daily that I would spend commuting doing work. So, when I have to expend those two hours driving, I am less productive and end up working over PLUS driving two hours round trip. I really wish they would just let me work remotely; my job could be 100% remote without any problem. But, my firm is 150 years old and sometimes some of the thinking/policies are a little outdated in my opinion - not that anyone asked. Also, my manager indicated that he thinks that some people are taking advantage of the work-from-home privilege so that's not good. I sure hope that a few people don't screw it up for the rest of us.
14:52 Jun 10 2023
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This time next week, I will be waking up on vacation. Thank God. It is much needed.
Today13:46 Jun 07 2023
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Today I have an online appointment with my psychiatrist for a medicine check. I am actually doing better now that we have eliminated one of the meds that I was taking. It had me feeling too flat; I literally could not cry when crying was the appropriate response and I really didn't feel happy ever either. It was this no man's land of blah. Not a good feeling. We thought, originally, that it was not enough medication. Turns out it was too much. I can't wait to hear what she has to say. I also did a genetic test to see what medicine should work best with my genetic make up. I will be interested to see the results of that. It is intriguing to me that there is a test for such a thing. Good, but intriguing.
12:12 Jun 02 2023
Times Read: 238
Well, another shitty night of sleep is behind me because now it is time to get up and attempt to be a productive human. I had trouble falling asleep and then when I finally did, I woke up around 1 a.m. I think I finally fell back asleep sometime after 4 a.m.
I could not stop thinking about death. My friend Anne's death this weekend has really got me reeling. I thought about Anne... my dad... then that graduated into worrying about my mom and my cat... everything I love is getting old and I know that my time with them is limited. It seems silly to waste that precious time sleeping, but then again, how can I survive on no sleep? Not to mention that they are sleeping so it is not like I could be spending time with them even if I wanted to... unless I creepily watched them sleep. LOL. It really is an unsolvable conundrum. I think it is time for another counseling session. My coping skills seem to have gone right out the window.
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COMMENTS
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Vampirewitch39
16:19 Jun 30 2023
Wow... I was thinking it was the tooth spot. It will be fine, nothing to worry about. Here if you need anything.
Vodka
23:15 Jun 30 2023
If you need anything hun we are all here for you *hugs*
Nightgame
01:21 Jul 01 2023
Will add you to my prayers.
Theodora
14:41 Jul 01 2023
Thank you all! *Hugs*